But end up dengan aku duduk kat bilik, layan lagu raya sambil blogging. These few days, mood nak hangout disappeared macam tu je. Mood still berkabung after my only granny passed away, tinggalkan aku. Aku realized, these few days banyak sangat hal yang buat hati aku sedih. Mungkin aku makin sensitif, tapi entah.
Mula-mula, Mr. Hate tinggalkan aku. Okay, it is not he is the one who left me behind, but he never look for me after we break off. Such shit! Aku hilang sense untuk loving a person more than a friend. For me, let's be friend, it's better because you guys would never left me behind. Mungkin layanan seorang kawan tak sebagus layanan your ex. Tapi it's better than to be hurt again and again. The one who suffer macam nak mati is YOU!
Aku admit after break off, aku macam lost. Hilang guide. Damn! Tapi that's the truth. It's took me quite sometimes untuk aku sedar realiti yang sebenar-benarnya, tak ada yang benar melainkan yang benar belaka. Aku macam orang bodoh, tak pandang manusia yang ada depan mata sebab berharap sangat Mr. Hate will come back. And all my effort paid off, he never come back actually. Everyday, aku stalker muka buku nya dia. Sound crazy and psycho, aku pun macam tak percaya aku boleh jadi macam tu. But life must go on, we need to move forward and bila aku fikir pasal future aku yang masih kabur berhabuk, aku mula think positive. Very positive sampaikan aku sekarang ni hardly to cry.
Aku fikir pasal family, aku ada family aku yang aku sayang dan tidak mengecewakan they all pun sayang aku melimpah-ruah. Gedik dan propa sangat tapi ada aku kesah. Life must go on, so I move on. Don't wanna to waste my precious air mata for those yang lanahat especially Mr. Hate. Walaupun still aku tak dapat nak remove dia dari friend list aku dalam buku muka, but I can live my life with or without him. I'm nearly twenty so I will act matured like I should. No boy no cry. PROUD!
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