I'm sorry. Forgive me.
Hai people.
It is been quite a long time i didn't wrote in my blog. Got so busy suddenly since final just around the corner. Me got so busy, busy with the assignment, with the presentation, and oh ya! I just came back from a trip. Class trip. But now I was not going to talk about that. I just could say it's awesome.
This evening something happen and make me realize about something. Yah! A very big something. And of course I'm not going to spell the big with the Caps Lock on. NO! okay I just did it.
Okay, I'm not going to call this as an advice because the way she/he talk to me is kind of URGH! I wish I could slap him/her right on the right/ left cheek. Why I keep using this / ? Me, myself don't know. Serabut giler sekarang.
This person came to me and tegurlah the why I behave around my friend and so on. He/she said "Nad you do change from the way you wearing but not the way you behaving". I'm quiet shock and was about to faint. Okay, I'm trying to make the story more interesting. I was shock. But still I realize about that and feel a little bit shame on myself. I admit that sometimes I'm still behave like my old one. Maybe because I'm used to it, it became it a habit. But now I try to change that and sometimes I forget.
I told him/her, "I'm sorry for the way I behave, maybe I was used to it. But thank you for remind me. I'll try to change that." Then he/she replied " Used to it? It's look like you never live like the real muslimin even you are wearing a hijab. You make people wearing hijab look terrible". I was stunt. I know I was wrong for the way I behave but do I deserved to get insult like that. I feel so so so bad. I was about to cry. I make a big mistakes and yes I know about that since you told me but do you have to thrown off those sarcasm words? Do watch you language people.
At first, respect grown on when you try to tegur for kesalahan but then after you dah cakap macam tu, it's seems like I making a wrong decision about you. I could say thank you untuk teguran tu but thanks no thanks, you buat I menyesal pulak.
Seriously, at this moment, I feel like I wanna go home be with my family. They know me better and even they don't like the way I behave, diorang tegur dengan cara berhemah, not using harsh word like you do. How I miss my house, my family. Just remember, nobody can accept your past and your present except the one who closest to you, your family and In sha Allah, Allah S.W.T.
#Soalan Provokasi Cinta: Don't Trust.
Hai beautiful girl and charming guys. How are you? Its been quite long time I didn't update this blog since aku sekarang dah menyandang jawatan baru iaitu sebagai Pengerusi Kelab Janda. Sungguh sibuk dan penuh dengan onak duri sejak menjadi seorang Pengerusi. But that's not the point here. The point here is refer back to the title.
Mesti korang mengutuk dalam hati, "what the hell this girl talking about?".
And here's my replied "Sabar reti??"..
Selama mana aku berhibernasi di Gunung Tebu hari tu, aku didatangi ilham dan perasaan yang bermacam. Especially being in love. At first, you meet a guy. A charming guy. You like him, you stalk him. Then you get a motivation to add him of follow him, and he accept you request. You girls melompat-lompat macam kuda belang because too excited then terlanggar dinding. Okay that's not it. He accept your request and you girls soo happy and then got a courage to poke or lagi berani private message him. Just simple word, HI.
Then he replied back, not Fuck YOU but HI PRETTY. Korang girls yang perasaan cantek cair, then you see a big chance for you to masuk jarum this guy. Everyday pantang ada masa renggang you will online yourself dengan harapan this guy jugak turut online dan bolehlah korang menyulam kisah cinta muka bulu korang.
Then one day, he asked for your phone number or your bb pin and start bbm, texting. Korang girls was like "Oh my! he gonna bbm me all the time whenever he miss me". And making your horrible pretty face. That's a joke, please laugh. But then, harapkan panas sampai ke petang, tapi taufan Margarita di tengah hari. He likely to stop from bbm you and you girls was like "oh he's busy I guess. Maybe I need to bbm him first". Then you bbm but then no reply and you was like " What the fuck!! where the hell are you??". Even he is not yours.
After a few times, korang rasa dipermainkan. Hati diperjudikan. Hati diguris, dirobek dan so on. Then you blamed the guy that is honestly is has no interest or attraction for you but only hanya untuk test market. Korang girls yang innocent and a little stupid start to broken hearted konon. And start to become a full time stalker which is very annoying. Dan ini berlarutan sampailah korang jumpa next target to fell in love with.
Got it girls?
Here, aku bukan nak judge korang who already experienced this kind of situation. But please girls do remember. Most guys that suddenly came and start to flirt and called you sayang, baby and what so ever, only last for a few weeks of months. Its a habit for them untuk flirting, test market, pampered you girls like you so special to them and bullshit out those sweet words.
My advice, if they flirt you, flirt them too. But never keep the special feeling. Simpan rasa yang special for the one that worth for it. You girls worth more than a fucking shit guy with a bullshit words. Trust me.
Mesti korang mengutuk dalam hati, "what the hell this girl talking about?".
And here's my replied "Sabar reti??"..
Selama mana aku berhibernasi di Gunung Tebu hari tu, aku didatangi ilham dan perasaan yang bermacam. Especially being in love. At first, you meet a guy. A charming guy. You like him, you stalk him. Then you get a motivation to add him of follow him, and he accept you request. You girls melompat-lompat macam kuda belang because too excited then terlanggar dinding. Okay that's not it. He accept your request and you girls soo happy and then got a courage to poke or lagi berani private message him. Just simple word, HI.
Then he replied back, not Fuck YOU but HI PRETTY. Korang girls yang perasaan cantek cair, then you see a big chance for you to masuk jarum this guy. Everyday pantang ada masa renggang you will online yourself dengan harapan this guy jugak turut online dan bolehlah korang menyulam kisah cinta muka bulu korang.
Then one day, he asked for your phone number or your bb pin and start bbm, texting. Korang girls was like "Oh my! he gonna bbm me all the time whenever he miss me". And making your horrible pretty face. That's a joke, please laugh. But then, harapkan panas sampai ke petang, tapi taufan Margarita di tengah hari. He likely to stop from bbm you and you girls was like "oh he's busy I guess. Maybe I need to bbm him first". Then you bbm but then no reply and you was like " What the fuck!! where the hell are you??". Even he is not yours.
After a few times, korang rasa dipermainkan. Hati diperjudikan. Hati diguris, dirobek dan so on. Then you blamed the guy that is honestly is has no interest or attraction for you but only hanya untuk test market. Korang girls yang innocent and a little stupid start to broken hearted konon. And start to become a full time stalker which is very annoying. Dan ini berlarutan sampailah korang jumpa next target to fell in love with.
Got it girls?
Here, aku bukan nak judge korang who already experienced this kind of situation. But please girls do remember. Most guys that suddenly came and start to flirt and called you sayang, baby and what so ever, only last for a few weeks of months. Its a habit for them untuk flirting, test market, pampered you girls like you so special to them and bullshit out those sweet words.
My advice, if they flirt you, flirt them too. But never keep the special feeling. Simpan rasa yang special for the one that worth for it. You girls worth more than a fucking shit guy with a bullshit words. Trust me.
HATI DIPULAS BAK RAMBUTAN
Hey bugs and blossoms sekalian.
How's life? Okay. Sangat kuno untuk aku tanya soalan macam tu kat korang sedangkan benda tu tak ada kena mengena dengan aku pun dan aku tak peduli. Bila hati dah rabak serupa kain buruk dan aku tak ada tempat untuk menjaja cerita sedih aku, baru aku tersedar dari realiti bahawasanaya aku punya blog.Dan aku akan menggunakan sebaik mungkin blog aku ni untuk merangka cerita sedih percintaan aku.
Aku anggap kisah cinta aku nie sebagai UNDONE RELATIONSHIP. Yang mana, si pihak lelaki selalu menyatakan bahawa dia sayang aku dan cuba untuk menyakinkan aku tetapi tak mention kepada makhluk disekeliling bahasanya aku adalah awek dia. Manakala di pihak perempuan, iaitu aku, begitu sayang dan setia dan cuba yakin dengan kekuatan cinta walaupun hati selalu memberontak bertanyakan persoalan-persoalan yang brenset seperti, kenapa dia tak mention aku as his awek? atau, kenapa dia tak pernah nak membalas komen di pesbuk? kenapa dia tak pernah bertanya aku siapakah lelaki yang berpoking-poking dengan aku? dan sebagainya.
Terlalu banyak perkara yang terjadi antara aku dengan dia yang membuatkan aku kadang-kadang rasa, I'm wasting my time with people that pretend to love me. Tapi still, aku tahan segala rasa dan aku campak sejauh mungkin dan jika boleh nak je aku gali lubang di gunung everest dan tanam perasaan aku tu. Tapi bila dah takdir, what meant to be are meant to be. What are not, they will split. Aku bukanlah seorang yang suka stalker boypren mahupun nak serang hendap boypren aku. Tapi disebabkan aku rasa ada ketidakjujuran and naluri perempuan aku yang sering memberontak, maka aku tergerak hati nak stalker pesbuk dia. Maka aku terlihat satu post dari si perempuan bodoh yang dan status itu sangat gedik dan seakan-akan meminta pelempang sulong dari tangan aku.
Aku tanya dia, who's that pokemon?? Dan dia cuba menjawab seakan-akan bodoh seperti mentibang laut yang terencat. Mula-mula aku anggap dia tak faham akan pertanyaan aku, maka aku tanya buat kali kedua dan mendapat jawapan seprti HA?.. WTF! Dan dia seperti tak nak bagi tahu siapa pokemon yang gampang itu, maka aku decide dan faham siapa perempuan itu dan siapa aku pada dia. Perempuan tu lagi penting dan aku cuma kekasih gelap dia saja. Kecewa dan betapa rabaknya hati aku, cuma tuhan yang tahu. Sampai sekarang dia tak pernah cuba nak contact aku atau pujuk aku, seems dia tak pernah rasa kehilangan aku.
How's life? Okay. Sangat kuno untuk aku tanya soalan macam tu kat korang sedangkan benda tu tak ada kena mengena dengan aku pun dan aku tak peduli. Bila hati dah rabak serupa kain buruk dan aku tak ada tempat untuk menjaja cerita sedih aku, baru aku tersedar dari realiti bahawasanaya aku punya blog.Dan aku akan menggunakan sebaik mungkin blog aku ni untuk merangka cerita sedih percintaan aku.
Aku anggap kisah cinta aku nie sebagai UNDONE RELATIONSHIP. Yang mana, si pihak lelaki selalu menyatakan bahawa dia sayang aku dan cuba untuk menyakinkan aku tetapi tak mention kepada makhluk disekeliling bahasanya aku adalah awek dia. Manakala di pihak perempuan, iaitu aku, begitu sayang dan setia dan cuba yakin dengan kekuatan cinta walaupun hati selalu memberontak bertanyakan persoalan-persoalan yang brenset seperti, kenapa dia tak mention aku as his awek? atau, kenapa dia tak pernah nak membalas komen di pesbuk? kenapa dia tak pernah bertanya aku siapakah lelaki yang berpoking-poking dengan aku? dan sebagainya.
Terlalu banyak perkara yang terjadi antara aku dengan dia yang membuatkan aku kadang-kadang rasa, I'm wasting my time with people that pretend to love me. Tapi still, aku tahan segala rasa dan aku campak sejauh mungkin dan jika boleh nak je aku gali lubang di gunung everest dan tanam perasaan aku tu. Tapi bila dah takdir, what meant to be are meant to be. What are not, they will split. Aku bukanlah seorang yang suka stalker boypren mahupun nak serang hendap boypren aku. Tapi disebabkan aku rasa ada ketidakjujuran and naluri perempuan aku yang sering memberontak, maka aku tergerak hati nak stalker pesbuk dia. Maka aku terlihat satu post dari si perempuan bodoh yang dan status itu sangat gedik dan seakan-akan meminta pelempang sulong dari tangan aku.
Aku tanya dia, who's that pokemon?? Dan dia cuba menjawab seakan-akan bodoh seperti mentibang laut yang terencat. Mula-mula aku anggap dia tak faham akan pertanyaan aku, maka aku tanya buat kali kedua dan mendapat jawapan seprti HA?.. WTF! Dan dia seperti tak nak bagi tahu siapa pokemon yang gampang itu, maka aku decide dan faham siapa perempuan itu dan siapa aku pada dia. Perempuan tu lagi penting dan aku cuma kekasih gelap dia saja. Kecewa dan betapa rabaknya hati aku, cuma tuhan yang tahu. Sampai sekarang dia tak pernah cuba nak contact aku atau pujuk aku, seems dia tak pernah rasa kehilangan aku.
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